Chris DeLine

Cedar Rapids, IA

United States of Sadness Patties

Published in Blog.

United States Sadness

Fixing the tilted picture frame in my own life is hard enough most days. Add something like these NSA shenanigans to an outstanding litany of bullshit that includes self-sabotage, anxiety, fear, and depression, and it’s enough to make someone drink (if only it weren’t for the inconvenience of alcoholism, lurking in wait to ruin all the fun). Not that cell-phone monitoring is going to affect my life on the day-to-day, but that doesn’t mean the never ending news cycle’s constant depression parade isn’t enough to make me want to give up, walk over to McDonald’s and shovel a few more sadness-patties into my food hole. Some days I escape the Golden Arches’ reach, some days I don’t.

Killer Mike: They’re building less schools, they’re building more prisons. Bodies have to fill those prisons, those prisons become commerce and jobs for small towns in South Georgia. You become a commodity. I — my black body, as a young African American man, is a commodity to the prison industrial complex.

Sway: Is it getting to the point where El-P’s white body can be a part of that same process?

Killer Mike: Definitely! Poor white people… I just happen to represent the group they get first. So I have to, like, when I speak in terms of race I’m really speaking in terms of class, but I represent the group of men they come for first.

Sway: In the class. The social class.

Killer Mike: Yeah, so you have to be aware. So when I say ‘black’ I’m not just talkin’ about ‘Hey, it’s just black.’ No. They’re gonna come for poor Mexicans, poor whites, everybody eventually, but first in line, all them black boys? I need all them niggas in jail — know what I mean? — ’cause we need free labor.

El-P: And the scary thought is this… and you know you’re right, they’re gonna come for poor. But the scary part is that right now they’re just really busy making everyone poor.

The above is taken from an interview that Killer Mike and El-P did with Sway last year. Some people pay this sort of talk no mind and go about their daily routine as they would normally, while others resist through subversive demonstration or cling to sanity through humor. As comedian Junior Stopka tweeted yesterday, “Government definition of espionage: If you tell people we spy on people, you’re a spy.” I wish I had his finesse.

It’s hard not to read myself into Mike’s picture, but I’ll save you the myriad of “I’m just a useless cog in a broken machine” daydreams I’ve had, offering instead the same conclusion that seems to follow each: Yes, I’d like fries with that. Typically this stage in the process is greeted with near-immediate regret, only to be accompanied by a decreased sense of clarity, preventing me from seeing through my own immediate hurdles and leaving me far too self absorbed to concern myself with the possibility that my increasingly bloated social stratum might next up on the cultural chopping block. I may feel lonely, but in this, at least I’m not alone.