Chris DeLine

Film diary and review entries made on the movie social media website Letterboxd.

12/1/2019 Eighth Grade, 2018 (Rating: 3/5)

12/1/2019 The Virgin Suicides, 1999 (Rating: 2/5)

12/1/2019 We Need to Talk About Kevin, 2011 (Rating: 3/5)

12/1/2019 We Are Still Here, 2015 (Rating: 1.5/5)

12/2/2019 Insomnia, 2002 (Rating: 2.5/5)

12/2/2019 Half Nelson, 2006 (Rating: 2.5/5)

12/5/2019 Aqua Teen Hunger Force Colon Movie Film for Theaters, 2007 (Rating: 1.5/5)

12/6/2019 Paris, Texas, 1984 (Rating: 3.5/5)

I don’t know much about other people’s trauma, or upper case Trauma, but I’m learning, and I’ve got my own life I’ve lived experiences… Traumas and traumas. I’m starting to learn about the difference between re-living and healing though.

Cracking open the chest plate for a deeper examination isn’t where the change seems to happen. Revealing that there is hurt isn’t how to stop the pain. Re-living those events—as warped, distorted, and amplified as they might have become after years of self-imposed chest cracking—only gets us so far. Eventually the pins need to set, the scabs need to form, heal, and the stitches removed. Sometimes this happens with the help of others, sometimes not.

There, acceptance is supposed to be the reward, even if what remains seems unacceptable. Sometimes this is healing. Sometimes this is peace.

12/6/2019 Antichrist, 2009 (Rating: 2/5)

12/6/2019 They’re Inside, 2019 (Rating: 1/5)

12/8/2019 Bottle Rocket, 1996 (Rating: 2.5/5)

12/8/2019 Happy Death Day 2U, 2019 (Rating: 2/5)

12/8/2019 Lord of the Flies, 1963 (Rating: 2.5/5)

12/8/2019 The Godfather, 1972 (Rating: 4/5)

12/9/2019 Moonlight, 2016 (Rating: 4/5)

An Ode to Chiron

Restless sleep, gnashing teeth
What-ifs grow into a kingdom of hope
But when tomorrow comes they’ll still be there
And so will I, shield always up
Still unable to cope

Ten years gone by, never letting go
That look, that touch, only he only I
Seconds in after picking up the call
His voice, an overdue reward
For never saying goodbye

12/9/2019 Satanic Panic, 2019 (Rating: 1/5)

12/13/2019 Deadwood Park, 2007 (Rating: 2/5)

12/16/2019 My Bloody Valentine, 1981 (Rating: 2/5)

12/16/2019 November, 2017 (Rating: 3/5)

12/18/2019 Hot Rod, 2007 (Rating: 2.5/5)

12/21/2019 Jim Gaffigan: Quality Time, 2019

12/21/2019 The Wailing, 2016 (Rating: 3.5/5)

12/22/2019 Seconds, 1966 (Rating: 3.5/5)

12/23/2019 The Dead Don’t Die, 2019 (Rating: 1.5/5)

12/23/2019 The Apartment, 1960 (Rating: 3.5/5)

12/23/2019 Birth, 2004 (Rating: 3/5)

12/23/2019 The Gate, 1987 (Rating: 1/5)

12/23/2019 Sunset Boulevard, 1950 (Rating: 3/5)

12/24/2019 Child’s Play, 1988 (Rating: 1.5/5)

12/24/2019 Ready or Not, 2019 (Rating: 2/5)

12/25/2019 The Lair of the White Worm, 1988 (Rating: 2/5)

12/25/2019 New Rose Hotel, 1998 (Rating: 2/5)

12/25/2019 National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation, 1989 (Rating: 2/5)

12/26/2019 Escape Room, 2019 (Rating: 1/5)

12/27/2019 The Treasure of the Sierra Madre, 1948 (Rating: 3.5/5)

12/27/2019 Nocturnal Animals, 2016 (Rating: 3/5)

12/28/2019 Knives Out, 2019 (Rating: 3.5/5)

12/29/2019 Dead Man, 1995 (Rating: 2.5/5)

12/29/2019 DodgeBall: A True Underdog Story, 2004 (Rating: 1.5/5)

12/30/2019 A Night at the Opera, 1935 (Rating: 3.5/5)